forced_angel

A while since iv been able to bring my self to write anything i keep thinking of the past the good times before i let my self fall into drugs and make me so paranoid iv lost almost all my friends over money because i can never get my shit right with money and most will say its not about money but it's always been about money i wish i was rich and just make problems go away but this is life, i dont think i can fix what i have done how many people iv alienated i only wanted to live in the house so maybe i could reconnect with friends but im just a loser who can score you drugs that's exactly what i wanted to be, im sick and tired of my self im glad to say i wont be here very long.

music helps it truly does ignore the earth and its people. i want to walk on the surface of the sun so i can feel something anything maybe have an ex lover come to my door and make me feel like a child im tired of being numb .

its been over 2 years since i was with someone about 3 since i had sex with someone that is fucking sad.

im going to end that and reach for the glass bottle, good night.

There is so much to process its pretty neat this path iv started to take better then what else was there running on sand sounds pleasent .



IM not really sure how i feel about the things i do right now its like im changing like im starting to care about things again as bad as that sound's oh no i got feelings!!!! Runnnnn!!

Mmmmm got to love music got class bright and early woot. anyway

so there is so many things i want to do now but im not really sure which one is the best for me and those around me so many things like computer's i love em so much its not even funny im all about the pc's baby im such a geek its not even funny but yeah i cant wait i mean thats the point in being here to try and see what you can become good at while doing what you want, My best friend is teaching me guitar so thats gonna be really cool .



not sure what else to be said but yeah its very strange but i like it leave on a good note?...<9 have a good night

or several thing's to get off my chest or what not.


first of all , go fuck you're self you know who you are no one ever say's it because you're the perfect dick. have a good one im sick and tired of being the fucking shadow so im done man. peace.


Next topic i hate just about everything about me wooo what a surprise .

i want to pour my emotion's out i mean clearly that would be the best idea but every fucking time i do it becomes a fucking tv show or something "who can make it worse?!!?!?!?!?!?!" i mean i would watch the show but prob feel bad somewhere inside right? wrong none of you dont even fucking care.


i just dont want to be here anymore im not my self i havent been my self in a while so yeah

you kid's have fun

bye,<9